First written on 18th May 2020
Trauma is a way of sensing a disturbance in our being that the 5 senses cannot capture. It is a rupture in our energy system that calls for repair and healing.
You need to reconstruct your energy fields and this is a creative healing task.
Many people on earth attach this kind of energy disturbance to the past and they call it trauma. This view limits your creative power and somehow makes sense to your mind. You find limited healing in the past. Your energetic rupture is in the present. What you call traumatic events are manifestations of this rupture, not causes. You need to see the rupture in energetic terms. So far, you have only focussed on the shadow that the rupture generates and you have not seen the light from which the rupture comes from.
Trauma as an energetic rupture/barrier that blocks light in and out
The rupture/barrier is like an obstacle to the light that emanates from within you and from outside of you.
What you call trauma is the shadow that you see when your energetic rupture blocks the light that comes towards you. It stops you from seeing the beauty of light and from being grateful and receptive to higher energies of love.
What you call projections are the shadows projected by the barrier towards the world stopping the energy that you emanate from within.
These blocks are what you identify with as a human being and help you make sense of the world around you.
You have great creative power
You have the power to create, maintain and modify some of these ruptures. Some of your energy blocks belong to the energy system within which you were born and that you had to acquire to survive in physical form on this planet. You should see these for what they are and be grateful for having been able to take on these energy barriers.
Experiencing these barriers is part of your journey. Yet, when you say that you are scared of removing those, you are not really scared of the past, but of the amount of light that will come towards you or that will shine from within you as you remove them. This is why “understanding” trauma or “remembering traumatic events” does not work by itself. This is why therapy does not work for all. Because what is really needed is an energetic shift. It is acceptance and gratitude of these blocks as they make you and have made you who you are.
It is time to own your identity as an energetic being.
So many people on the planet are suffering from mental health issues. You struggle to classify them because your classification is based only on what science can capture. You are already feeling the effects of energetic ruptures at many levels (including at planet, collective conscious level), and the way you are dealing with them is very limited.
The way to heal
Humanity can only heal if they accept their existence as energy and not only as physical form. They need to start asking questions at an energetic level
what light is blocked by this energetic rupture in my field?
What is there for me to learn from this rupture. What high frequency emotion am I not allowing myself to feel because of this block?
What truths am I keeping hidden through the shadows my blocks generate? What version of reality am I forcing myself to see?
What talents and what light from within am I keeping hidden from the world because it might create so much shadows through the barriers of other people?
The last point is important. Because the more light you show, the more shadows will be projected on others whose barriers are up.
You need to learn how to calibrate your light. You need to use these barriers to remain a functional human being and change the consciousness of the people you interact with. If your light is at the right frequency, people receiving it will not see a huge shadow, and they will be able to sense the light.
Maybe, if they recognise the shadows, they can create some barriers that are good enough to take in some more light... like sunglasses allow the eyes to take is more sun light. If humans could create sunglasses in their psyche, they could see both the blocks casting the shadow and the light source without getting defensive. They will be able to grow safely.
EDIT (22nd May 2020)
The barrier/rupture creates projection. Because this barrier blocks the light we emanate, we see its shadow. In terms of trauma, this shadows manifests in the fact that we see reality through the shadow of trauma. This is what we call “projections” in therapy. What is projected is a mixture of our light and of the shadow cast by the barrier + the interaction of the light and shadow that we cast with the object/being of awareness
These barriers also stop light coming through them from the outside. Instead of receiving loving light from the world, we only receive the portion of light that is not stopped, and the rest we receive is shadow. That is how we have a distorted view of the world.
